I'm sitting here, trying to think of something, to think of anything but you. Everything in my life is connected to you, it's attached to you. I want to escape you because I hate that I can't have you. I hate seeing you with her, and I hate that you chose her over me. I hate that I wasn't pretty enough, or thin enough, or sweet enough. I hate that you couldn't love me, when I was willing to give everything and anything. I hate that I can't hate you. I hate the way I feel whenever I see you, I can hardly breathe, and I start shaking, but you're not mine.
You're not mine.
So now I'm sitting, trying to think of something. Something to w