dear god
i am drenched in sweat
and my heart falters
dear god
theres an ache in my chest
so that my heart swells up and absorbs my entire self
dear god
how my cheeks start fire
how my hands shake
dear god
my mouth is dry
and my throat is thick with regret
dear god
i cant say the words
i cant sya the words i need to say i need to know
dear god
save me from this heartbreak
its not supposed to crush me whole!
dear god
my muscles freeze
my eyes begin to water
dear god
what is the matter with me
and what have i become
dear god
im dying
i think that i am dying
oh dear.
dear god.
i dont know if i believe in god anymore...